8 september 2010

hi there all...sorry i have not been updating my blog for the past 7 months due to intensive studying and slacking.felt lazy to also update my blog for past 7mths and also due to some problems went emo..some fkers in class are juz too over-confident that they would nt get 1 day from sum1..but i will prove them wrong...the reason why im now bak again happy to blog is juz becoz of my brothers and 1 person(who i dun wish to mention the name).she was the turning point of my life by being a wonderful sister to me in my life..i am thankful to god forever for giving me such a great sister in life..loves my sister to an infinite extent*...but i always hope my sister does love me alot too and not use me to kill her boredom.If not my love for her is juz useless..i even went sot when i found out that her ex(who was my age),created fake email accounts and fb accounts on her name..Thankful that i did not harm him since i dunno wad to do at the time as my mind went blank...from then on,i hoped that the future bfs that she would get,should truely love her and take care of her..even if they have problems between each other,that guy shouldnt cause any form of harm to my sister...all i wanted is my sister to be happy and im rdy to take risks for that too...some have even came forward to ask me,"you haven even seen her in real and she hasnt done anything for u specifically...so y do u care for her?".......my only answer was,"she took good care of me.she calmed me down whenever i felt stress.when im bored,she msgs/toks to me over the fone..overall,she has made my life peaceful and also the reason why im calm nowadays is because of her"..i am even somewhat addicted chatting with her..zzzz.i have always regretted why wasnt she my real sister.that was the great punishment i have gotten in life.this is because,she is the greatest sister a person can get in his/her life.....i actually wanted to meet her during this year's hari raya.but in the end,i din want to coz of my prelims...i needed more time on studying for the time being..so i din manage to meet her up..the last time i met her was also the 1st time i met her.during that time,i din even know who was she.in fact when she was sitting opposite me,i din even talked to her..but now when i think about it,i seriously punched myself in the face..lol.i wasted a chance to talk to her in real!!..grrrrr.the worst thing was that she took 2hours for 1 burger..i was literally biting my teeth that time lol..till today i make fun of her about the burger....but each time i make fun of her,i would also feel sad on the inside that im making fun of my best sister!!but frm then till now,i din even get to meet her.sadded :)..juz because of tis fked up O levels...im seriously hoping when would this fking papers end..after my last fking paper,my 1st priority is juz to meet my sister!!...i dun care hu stops me on that!!.lol.hais scared also lah..im juz left with 42 days for my 1st ) level paper(sci practical).im feeling lazy to study nowadays too...but i have no choice :(..and ya...bak to the story...and after O lvl when i meet her i dun care how long she take to eat what lol...most importantly must bring her out during her bdae to celebrate our 1 year bro/sis relationship LOL.nid go sheesha wif her at the end of tis yr too...i hope the owner lets me in...otherwise,i throw the burning charcoal into his mouth....muahahahaha xD...nid go out wif her seriously whenever she is free coz after O lvls im always free.xD....i just hope i am always loved by her and that i am always her best brother who takes care of her....i would take any risk juz to be like this..moreover,after my O lvls,nid go do hardcore gym training too for some other purposes..hahaha...coz nid self-protection from some people who are aiming me after O levels...nid protect my sister at the same time too.hehe...xD....lastly nid find gf...i hope i wont forget my brothers and especially my sister when i get into a relationship,like someone did to me....but till now i have just no idea on how to repay back my sister's kindness :(:(:(.i juz cant contact her much coz im also worried about my academic results on the other side...but i seriously feel bad whenever she doesnt reply my msg or ignores me...moreover i even think nonsense in my mind such as,"has she forgotten her brother?or have i done smth wrong to her wich made her prevent me?"but i would like to convey 1 message to all people who wants to make problem wif my sister..."think thrice b4 u make problem wif her,or else you will regret"....making problem with my sister is even worse den making problem wif me...haha nvm juz duwan tok abt the negative things now...if not my mood will change as my mood is always capricious...zzzzzz....the thing im glad till today is that she even enquired about me to my cousin when i was sick...she is the only one who cares for me other then my parents and brothers...but im trying my best to care for her also la..hehehe.i am even talkin to her in msn now haha:)..well my hand pain edy now.zzz..so i guess i better stop now..if not if my sister or someone else reads this,confirm die of heartattack due to the length.and i duwan become a murderer too..i good boy to everyone especially to my sister....if i start toking abt my sister,i wont be able to finish by the end of today..i needa slp too..nights.tmr i will seeya wif a new post!!lastly,selamat hari raya to all muslims celebrating it!!!!!!!!!!!!!